Monday, November 24, 2008

Not Me Monday


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  • I did not fall asleep last night with my computer for a whole half an hour and wake up very confused thinking it was morning, though technically it was 12:30am!
  • I did not sleep until 10:30 today and miss chapel
  • I did not curse the milky snow falling outside my window and wonder who called in sick to work today and wished i could.
  • I would never have raw cookie dough for breakfast
  • and it is a good thing that my friend did not have a funeral for her good friend yesterday cause I do not like it when other people are in pain and since it is not right for two young people to die within a week of each other.
nope it is a very good thing none of these things happened

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Baby Picture Sunday


3 years ago
little Filipino baby boy that i got the privilege of holding during a mission trip to the country that stole my heart.

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Saturday, November 22, 2008

Monday, November 17, 2008

Home...

Today was Kyle's funeral... A life taken too soon... I was going to write an eloquent blog, but my creativity has taken a vacation so...

Here is a list of 24 thoughts and "quotes" I had/heard this weekend in memory of the 24 years he shared this earth with us:

1. "It's not Fair" (sheila's mom)
2. "They are so lucky to have you" (Amy Curtis) you don't know how lucky I am to have them (me)
3. "I heard she was having some trouble, I have been praying for her" (E prying for info about J) "She is working through stuff, we appreciate your prayers" (me)
4. "Are you going to the cemetery?" "yes, Sir" "Are you family mam?" "yes, mam" (yes, i called the funeral guy "mam" AHH how horrifying!)
5. "It's so sad, this is not how it is supposed to be" (Rachel in my car talking about how parents are supposed to go first)
6. "you're such a loser" (Julia to me, of course)
7. "I can't believe I missed this, I missed that"
8. "I love you" "I love you" "I love you""I love you""I love you""I love you"
9. "is your name Courtney maKay" (greekbutt for the hundreth time joking about my name after i told him many times what it was) "Alam mo ny an" (me)
10. "you are so brave, Dawn" (some guy)
11. "He was so talented" (friend)
12. "You are dismissed" (funeral guy)
13. "I will never let you hurt like this again"
14. "whoa" (Rachel when i slammed on the breaks to avoid hitting the car in front of me in the precession)
15. "I heard she had some trouble" (Elsie trying to pry for information about J)
16. Maraming Salamat po Diyos
17. "Kyle was pure sweetness and light, he was everything anyone would want their boy to be"
18. "oh, don't worry, we have some diet dr. pepper stashed away"
19. I'm sorry
20. "thank-you for singing" (j) "no, thank-YOU, you made it through, I love you" (me)
21. I smell like a bar and my family is pretty broken and messed up, but i love them... i need them... and i am part of them...
22. "It made me so sad to see aunt debby crying" (kayla) "i know sweetie, it's hard to see people you love in pain" (me)
23. "She is over there, and Grandma is over by that pine, and that heart is mom, and the baby is over there by the upsidedown vase between the two trees there" (aunt pat, pointing out family members graves)
24. "goodbye Kyle" (me as i touched his shoulder paying my final respects)

Not Me Monday




I did not mess up the 2nd verse of the song i say today at Kyle's funeral
I did not eat 6 cookies at the visitation at the funeral home
I did not wish that i did not have to go back to school
I did not realize how much i actually love my family

Baby picture sunday (on monday)



Buddha Bellies









Friday, November 14, 2008

Leaving....

Hello fellow bloggers, family and friends, I will not be able to write/read this weekend as i will be going to my hometown, where i do not have internet access for a funeral :( I look forward to catching up with you all next week.

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Reaching Out....



I am one of those people who is terrified of reaching out to others, to share with them my burdens, to ask for prayer for the "BIG" stuff, to be comfortable with shared knowledge. I am learning to be more aware, fully present, and patient. I am understanding that i may never understand, but am still capable of being there, here, separate, together, awake. And maybe, just maybe, some of the things i fear may happen are not as bad as i think they will be, not good, but good in the same sense.

Like unplanned pregnancies, babies born into less than "perfect" circumstances, I hope my attitudes about how things "should" be wouldn't hinder my relationship with the mother and child. that i could see that baby, and see good...

Or that maybe i would be able to cast aside my fears of getting close, or doing something wrong, saying something wrong, or not knowing what to do... i can still go and be there -- and pray, pray, pray...

Tuesday, November 11, 2008

Ten Things Tuesday

XBOX Wife Ten Things Tuesday
Today I am thankful for:

1. Brittany (my roommate) not leaving me alone in the house today.
2. Time to work hard on my project
3. Great blogs to read written by good people
4. Thoughts
5. Baby picture screensavers
6. Diminishing plague
7. Memories
8. The promise of a future with good things
9. understanding
10. my God

What College students do when they are bored and quarantined...



Two for Tuesday


Dueling Cousins

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Monday, November 10, 2008

Not Me Monday



I did not spend this day off from school because of the plague watching tv and hanging out with my roomies instead of studying.

i did not dance around the house to HSM songs all evening, NOT ME!

I did not secretly wish the plague upon my professor so i would not have to attend class on Thursday

I did not receive an email from the college about being a hand washing police officer asking that I stop people from leaving the bathroom without washing their hands and to make sure people sing the happy birthday song while they scrub.

I did not eat m&ms for breakfast

I am so glad that i did not do all these things today!


Sunday, November 09, 2008

Baby Picture Sunday

Baby's Little Piggies





Joshua's Piggies

Adler's Piggies

Piggies Low Five!

Sophie and Ethan's Piggies


Friday, November 07, 2008

Plague...


This was in my email box today I got quite a chuckle out of it despite the seriousness of the Norovirus outbreak at my college.

CAMPUSMAIL DISTRIBUTION (From Student Development)

The college is NOT being quarantined...students are encouraged to REMAIN calm.

Please stay on campus as the CDC and the State of Michigan do not want the virus spreading to other communities.

All gatherings of students are strongly discouraged. Any violations of this directive are considered a violation of state law and college policy.

The Holland Police Department or campus safety will immediately disperse any large gatherings of students including parties off campus.

Residents of residential halls are encouraged to keep their doors closed.

Students are discouraged from leaving campus. This will help to decrease the spread of the norovirus to family, friends and in your community.

Social distancing is strongly encouraged.


NOT quarantined, yet we have been told that we must stay in our rooms and keep the doors closed. I am so grateful i live in a College owned cottage and have a full kitchen, living room, etc. and am not trapped in a tiny 12 by 12 room like so many of those on campus.

We have an outbreak of norovirus 140 cases have been reported but i am sure there is a lot more. So far i am not sick. Pray for me!

http://www.mlive.com/grpress/news/index.ssf/2008/11/hope_college_closes_through_tu.html

http://www.hope.edu/hopetoday/norovirus.html

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

Ten Things Tuesday

XBOX Wife Ten Things Tuesday

I am thankful today for:
1. The "B" i got on my test!
2. endurence to complete my assignment this morning
3. The beautiful sunny and warm day
4. My roommates
5. Oreo Cookie Sundaes
6. Gift in the mail from my Grandma in Florida
7. Smooth meeting with my adviser
8. Hope College attmosphere
9. Blog friends
10. Playing in the leaves with the kids I babysat today (Emma and Hannah)

Two for Tuesday!


Two sets of Princess Toes
Ella and Sophia





scheduling, baby-sitting, papers and projects!
Today started out pretty crazy, but ended up alright... Tomorrow is the big day! scheduling! yikes! I am a believer that my schedule should work out perfectly with enough time to work and play and study of course, but the college seems to think differently. I have HUGE HUGE HUGE papers and projects due in the coming weeks... but then... it is Sweet sweet freedom!

Monday, November 03, 2008

No Me Monday



I did not check Mckmama's blog every day last week for baby news upon the hour while i was home in between classes and work... not me!

I did not eat a whole bag of lifesavors in 2 days, nope not me!

I did not secretly wish i hadn't agreed to baby-sit so i could go horseback riding, not me

I did not spend the last three hours online checking blogs and watching sunday night's episode of Extreme Makeover: Home Edition insted of getting started on my Homework, nope not me!