Friday, June 07, 2013

Update

I'm happy. I just want to shout it from the rooftops. I'm busy and learning and growing and happy. Yes there is stress and pain and sadness, but there is overwhelming joy. 

Today after running (including a mile of running without stopping to walk! Take that ms. Haynes!) visiting my favorite little gray pony and candlelight yoga I went out for sushi (and hot sake) with a friend. 

This friend, and mentor, who told me a few months ago that I was a fly trapped in a jar, told me tonight that she is watching me grow and learn to put value to myself.

I brushed her words off on the outside, but internally they melted into my heart and I actually believed them this time. I am gaining confidence each day, living more, playing hard, praying, pushing, growing, and loving fiercer then ever before. 

There is a song that goes "words can build us up, words can bring us down, put a fire in our hearts or put it out" sometimes it's the words we speak to ourselves that drown out the words others are trying to get us to hear. 

There are days for sure, but lately joy is right around the corner.