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Gray days in my heart

When I miss the bright days

And want to run away

Maybe get lost here

When what I need to do is focus on this

I am stuck in the tension of this week...
I always suck at transitions
Especially birthday week

I want to be so much more
I can't stop dreaming about a future
catching babies
raising babies
traveling
Planting myself firmly in the soil of Holland

There is so much in my way it seems
but if it wasn't meant to be I'd like to think the Lord would take the desire away...

and

If it is meant to be... wouldn't He tear the walls down?


I think it is time for a bubble bath and a nap