I did not decide half way through packing that I was done and just shove my stuff into garbage bags and load them into my car, not me!
I did not load up the car drive 15min away and park it for the entire weekend in order to babysit 2 beautiful girls, not me!
I did not enjoy the wonderful sunshine and warmth by taking the girls out in the stroller twice a day, not me!
I did not convince my little sis to trade her full-size bed for my twin-sized bed, I would never be that sneaky, not me!
I did not get my mom and dad matching "I love my Husband/Wife" shirts for mother's/father's day, not me, that would be way to gooshy!
I did not, actually enjoy attending my home church for the first time in a long while, and for once not feel like I didn't belong there anymore after being away at college, not me!
I did not go to bed at 7pm on Sunday night and spend 4 hours online under the covers, not me!
I did not nearly jump up and down in the store when I saw that Fla-vor-ice 100 pack boxes were available again due to the summer coming, and I sure do not eat 10 in one sitting, not me!
I am not going to the daycare to help out in the infant room without being on payroll just because I miss being surrounded by 7 crying, crawling, spitting-up, drooling, mess-making cuddly, sweet babies, not me, I have relaxing to do on summer break!
I did not get a bit bummed on Sunday when the pastor chose to preach on Hannah and Samuel, thinking about how I may be brokenhearted like Hannah was when she was barren, not me I am positive about my future with Endometriosis
I do not still miss Elianna everyday, yet am afraid to call her mother, not because of what she may say, but because of what she may not say or do...
I am not at all looking forward to going to the U.P. (Michigan's upper peninsula) to visit the people I loved with while attending NMU for a year, not me!
I did not say things I never thought I would say to someone whom many think would not deserve empathy and compassion, and I think it was a blessing to both of us.
I am feeling so blessed today, so loved and so happy, and it is so good!