Sunday, January 31, 2010

Refine me Lord through the flames

The Desert Song

Verse 1:
This is my prayer in the desert
And all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in the hunger in me
My God is a God who provides

Verse 2:
And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or pain
There is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me Lord through the flames

And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon forged against me shall remain

I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here

Verse 3:
And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand

All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship

Verse 4:
This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be empited again
The seed I've recieved I will sow

Saturday, January 30, 2010


Another busy weekend... nothing to cleaver to write about tonight. I promise someday I will get back to writing blogs worth reading!


Hope/Calvin Rivalry GO HOPE!

Grocery shopping

Frozen pipes in the house (I called that one when I saw the holes they put in the basement this fall and covered some up with plywood when we complained about skunks getting in the basement... half-@** job= more work in the end guys!) :)

Study Study Study tomorrow...

I have 2 tests next week... please pray for me!

Thursday, January 28, 2010


Sometimes I wish things were different...

that I didn't have to work
that I didn't have to go to school
that I could just go to school
that I could just work
that I didn't have to miss out on doing things
that I didn't have to say "Yes"
that I didn't have to say "No"

Just feeling sorry for myself for not being able to do something due to life circumstances...

both my fault and not

Ok... all done feeling bummed... back to living life!

Sunday, January 24, 2010

Wednesday, January 20, 2010


Abby, Stellan, Tuesday, and all the other babes who have needed blood!

Thursday, January 14, 2010


Need I say more?

I was looking for a photo to share with this post, but after a Google search turned up a photo of a family, bloodied and bruised, in a pile of rubble I could not post it here...
( for those who may need a reminder of the devastation.

Compassion International serves children and families in Haiti, more than 65,000 children in Haiti. At least a third of them live in the areas that were hardest hit.
the children in Haiti are in shock and face immediate needs for food, water, medical care, shelter and counseling.

Compassion International says "We need your help immediately. Please reach out in the name of Jesus to bring relief, comfort, love and restoration to precious children and families whose lives have been devastated by this crisis."

To help out visit this link Haiti Relief

And As always, keep those in need in your prayers

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


I spent this evening by a warm fireplace, reading for my Perspectives class, listening to the little guy I was babysitting for breathe over the baby monitor these are my ponderings....

  • Someday I will have a fireplace
  • Someday I will have a cloth-diapered little one
  • God is more than good

Monday, January 11, 2010

Song of the week...

Stumble After You

Would I smile if I was broken? Would I dance on crippled feet?
Would I fall too far behind again, or run a race I know I can’t complete?
Would I give if I had nothing, and could I love the ugly me?
Would I try so hard to be so strong, when I know that all I am is weak,
All I am is weak . . .
Would I clench my fist, fall down and scream at all I cannot do?
Or dry my eyes and crawl back to my feet,
And stumble after you.
Would I grin in my embarrassment, and would I laugh when the joke is me?
Could I look you in the eyes still, when my crippled legs are all that I can see,
All that I can see . . .
So take my hands if they won’t give, and take my life so I can lift you.
Take my eyes if they’re on me, please take my heart and make it bleed.
Take all this up to a hill and crucify the king of will
Till all I have runs down my face and I’m a wretch who’s drowning in your grace.

E is doing great. She is in 1st Grade. She is working hard to walk without her walker. She still uses it but not in the house. After years of Doctors, much testing and suggested diagnoses' the doctors settled that E has Spinal Cerebellar Ataxia. The great news is that they cannot figure her out. She defies all odds. So God prevails always. Her confession has always been, "I walk in Jesus name!" and sure enough he answers her prayers a day at a time. ~Amy H.

May we all learn to Stumble after the Lord in our daily struggles...
Whether we battle not feeling smart enough, pretty enough, worthy enough, connected enough, thin enough, thick enough, struggle for meaningful relationships, struggle against physical ailments, imperfections, spiritual weakness, shyness, fear, everyone battles something...

let's stumble together...

Cake Balls

Not as Pretty as Bakerella's
But a yummy 1st try!


College Reading

Real Life Reading :)

(I am so pumped about the new Kids Are Important Series about foster care and termination of parental rights for children 4-10! )

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Baby Picture Sunday

This week's theme: Abundance

One abundant summer I was blessed to care for 4 precious little ones (mostly) on my own. It was awesome. They are all entering their 2nd year of life now and are amazing toddlers. That summer we built, painted, snacked, splashed, laughed, cried, played hard, learned, danced, napped and grew together!

Tuesday, January 05, 2010

10 things to be happy about today

Copied from IRL friend Listmaker's Life

  1. Jamie is here and I am not alone... (don't tell Jobson!)
  2. Successful and fun adventure to get JFey!
  3. Unpacked
  4. chatting with the lovely Brittany
  5. internet is working (for a minute at least)
  6. awesome class last night at the seminary
  7. Pandora ( I have to agree with Katie on this)
  8. Chatting with Mommy
  9. Rose Chapstick
  10. M&M's

Sunday, January 03, 2010

20 things Bucket List

This idea is partially brought to you by Single, Bereaved, Broken and Tenacious

  1. Become more involved in midwifery
  2. Learn to dance
  3. Have a baby
  4. adopt kids
  5. be a foster mom
  6. See Elianna again
  7. raise enough money for Guatemala
  8. return to the Philippines
  9. detoxify my life
  10. get down to 130lbs
  11. love deeply
  12. make a difference
  13. graduate college
  14. have my own place
  15. have money in my savings
  16. never lose touch with some people
  17. find "the one"
  18. Be brave daily
  19. speak eloquently
  20. remember to stop. breathe

Friday, January 01, 2010

Happy New Year

Ending the year 2009 with:

Baby boy P. 6lbs 4oz 20 1/4 inches long

Beginning the year with:

Baby girl 9lbs 20 1/2 inches long

Life as a semi-midwife's apprentice is pretty sweet