It means "you know already" in Tagalog (long story). It seems as though each day i am learning that in some ways deep down i do know the answer already, but when I don't know... my Abba Father does.
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Highs: Having supportive friends, a relationship with the Lord, and having the privilege to help lead worship in mighty Dimnent Chapel. Being surrounded by brilliant and talented, peers, faculty and staff, connecting with a fellow Hollander/Hope grad/MckMama follower
Lows: Finding out some bad news, Research paper due next week, and a tummy ache!
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” ~Marianne Williamson
We tend to loose sight of just how powerful we are. We have the power to make of break someone's day, to serve, to use, to lift up and tear down others.
I made You promises a thousand times I tried to hear from Heaven But I talked the whole time I think I made You too small I never feared You at all No If You touched my face would I know You? Looked into my eyes could I behold You?
(CHORUS) What do I know of You Who spoke me into motion? Where have I even stood But the shore along Your ocean? Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful? What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I guess I thought that I had figured You out I knew all the stories and I learned to talk about How You were mighty to save Those were only empty words on a page Then I caught a glimpse of who You might be The slightest hint of You brought me down to my knees
(CHORUS) What do I know of You Who spoke me into motion? Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com Where have I even stood But the shore along Your ocean? Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful? What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
(CHORUS 2) What do I know of Holy? What do I know of wounds that will heal my shame? And a God who gave life "its" name? What do I know of Holy? Of the One who the angels praise? All creation knows Your name On earth and heaven above What do I know of this love?
(CHORUS) What do I know of You Who spoke me into motion? Where have I even stood But the shore along Your ocean? Are You fire? Are You fury? Are You sacred? Are You beautiful? What do I know? What do I know of Holy?
I did not freak when I compaired my 4-year-plan with my roommate and fellow ED major... I would never be that far behind, not me!
I did not spend a couple of hours making videos for sweet Abby Riggs, instead of studying, not ME!
I am not looking forward to going to Florida in March, and I definitely do not have a countdown chart made, not me!
I did not drink pop 2 days in a row, I would never do that, I am a strictly water girl!
I did not skip the Gathering last night and end up doing a photo shoot of our flooded bathroom with my housemates, we are women we do not flood toilets!
I did not offer a bribe of free child care to MckMama so that she would consider hosting Worldwide Hug-A-Stellan Day in Michigan, not me!
She was adopted from Guatemala. At three years old, she was diagnosed with a high-risk, aggressive form of Leukemia. Certain genetic complications have put her chance of surviving the treatment at about 20%.
I am praying for her and her family. Would you pray for them too?
You can find more about Abby here, on her family blog:
Abby is a beautiful spunky four-year-old who is fighting cancer with a smile on her face, a dance in her feet and a light in her heart. please keep this family in your prayers and visit their blog
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.
I did not while babysitting MSC (many small children) look up and see child 2 to wipe his nose on his shirt and ignore it because I was coloring with child 1, not me I am super observant!
I did not get bummed when i missed the 4mil mark on MckMama's blog, I would never be bummed about something like that!
I did not miss work on Friday due to an unexplained rash thinking it was something caught from the kids, when it was really a stress rash, not me! I am the epiphany of calm.
I have not spent hours this weekend "shaking my hips" as a dancing machine, not me!
I did not cuss out loud upon opening my bill for registration for next semester, not me!
The breeze at dawn has things to tell you.
Don't go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don't go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don't go back to sleep.
Don't let your throat tighten
with fear. Take sips of breath
all day and night, before death
closes your mouth.
The morning wind spreads its fresh smell
We must get up and take that in,
that wind that lets us live.
Breathe before it's gone.
Dance, when you're broken open.
Dance, when you've torn the bandage off.
Dance in the middle of the fighting.
Dance in your blood
Dance, when you're perfectly free
Daycare sweeties last year giving kisses, Nolan, Londyn and Miss Erica "CaCa"
The love of my life, my little sister Randee, shortly after she was placed with us as a relative placement. over 8 years ago. Thease are her "baby pictures" as we don't have any others. These are also the first pics where she doesn't look scared anymore.
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Hi: I can see all the many big and small ways that the Lord is taking care of me. When something comes up, or i get stressed He always shows me the light at the end of the tunnel. I am really excited about a future babysitting job Sat-Tuesday in April with a four-year-old and one-year-old twins! and taking my little sister to Disney in March for my birthday!
Lo: Waking up early and paying bills! I have been having trouble sleeping and have been becoming quite restless in the morning hours (3-6am).
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.
Here are all the things that I would not like to admit to doing this week.
I did not leave my dirty socks on the floor for several hours just because my roommate is not here (It's Winter Break) and feel slightly naughty about it.
I did not spend hours reading blogs that I should have spent on Homework, Not me!
I did not consistently feed crackers to a kid at daycare all afternoon to keep him from crying,not me, I know the fine art of distraction and would never stoop that low.
I did not buy a celebratory jar of Triple Chocolate Chunk Fudge Frosting due to the fact that I have a complete free day tomorrow.
I did not just tell a lie on my Not Me Monday post about having a complete free day tomorrow, when in actuality i do not have a baby-sitting interview with a new family, a research paper to write, and abut 100 pages of reading and responses to do tomorrow, not me!
I am not a bit excited about babysitting for a long weekend in April for 1 year-old twins and a 4-year-old. I am not already planning activities and crafts to do with them two months in advance. Why on earth would a 21 year-old college student want to feed, change, read, play, entertain, enrich, for 96 hours straight. ;)
I am not at all excited about snuggling on the couch with my RA and watching Disney movies tonight not me!
I am in a strange season of life right now. I can see the ways I have grown, and the ways in which I still need to grow. Some areas are flowering and others need to be pruned back as they are withered.
I pray differently. I am past the Sunday School answers. I see the grays and am overwhelmed by the light that He shines in this dark world. I am studying harder. Listening better and shutting up more. I am learning to let go and move on, yet holding on tighter than ever to what I need to. My life depends on this ability to let go and hold on. I am old. My plans are loosening up and I nearly have the courage to commit.
I am still holding back from doing things I love, or think i might love. I still feel the pressure to do what i am "supposed" and to ignore the pull of my heart. To be truthful, it is safer to do what i am supposed to do. To keep telling myself i could never be brave enough to jump in head-on. I have gotten in this popular mindset that there must always be a plan -- a good plan. That you are better off being safe. I am tired of being safe, yet my soul trembles at the thought of the "unsafe".
I surprised myself today in being O.K. with news i received, that came as no surprise. I expected this and as God has proven time and time again I will be ready when the time comes.
That is quite a concept too, being ready when the time comes. We worry and groan about changes in the future, when it is inevitable... yet when it is time we are ready, deep down inside we are ready, whether we admit it or not.
Sweet Abby is in the hospital in pain, struggling to beat the cancer that is beating up her little body
And well, I don't know... Babies are not supposed to hurt or die, but when they do... is there ever a point in which you are ready?
Will there be a point when i say YES and do what my heart seems to want to do, even though it is scary? When will I be brave enough to say Yeah I am going to Doula training, Yeah I am going to midwife training in the Philippines, Yeah I am teaching a class of elementary kids, Yeah I have a date, and we are getting serious, Yeah I can be your shoulder to cry on, Yes, I am here for you no matter what, Yeah, if you need a place to stay come stay with me, it isn't much but we will be just fine. Will I be brave enough to let go when it is the final goodbye. When will i be brave enough to forgive. Will I be ever be brave enough to accept the deepest heartbreak if i am unable to have children?
These are my ponderings tonight as I lay my head down to rest...
But oh, how blessed I am, because greater is HE that is in me, mighty and strong, loving and just. I am cradled in His arms of unfailing love. For that I say Praise the Lord, Mahal kita Diyos, Maraming Salamat Po Diyos. Hallelujah hallelujah hallelujah.
Thursday, February 05, 2009
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Hi: Getting some medication that works! completing my paper! Spending time with my housemates, being loved by the King.
Lo: being sick, being broke, and paying bills yuck!
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