Keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

I was told by Jesus all was well
So all must be well

Just give me time
You know your desires and mine
So wrap my flesh in ivy and in twine
For I must be well

Keep the earth below my feet
For all my sweat, my blood runs weak
Let me learn from where I have been

Oh keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn
Oh keep my eyes to serve, my hands to learn

Who knew a Mumford and sons song could relate to midwifery? 

What a wild and amazing ride it's been since quitting my "day job". I am feeling more confident day by day and am starting to believe and claim the words of affermation those who support me have been saying all along: "you've got this" "good job". Today I cried tears of joy as i thought about the magnitude of the trust and confience others have in me. 

I'm getting better at running (even though I still hate it, I'm doing it). I landed a postpartum doula job ( it starts tomorrow since the babe was early, pray for me as this week was already super busy). I'm also working with another midwife as an assistant, playing hard, having lots of pony time, and trying new things. 

This plan is actually working! Who knew? :) 

Some people....

We've all head the quote, and variations of it.

Some people stay a season, 9 months, a year, a decade, a lifetime.

Some people wonder in and out.

Some people come back.

Others are only memories.



But we are never, ever the same

Update

It's your grace when we're human
It's your mercy when we're undeserving
It's your faith when we're faithless
It's your comfort when we're sad
You are still when we're restless
You are thunder when we're silent
You are calm when we rage
Your are peace when we are violent - Carry me


It's been a busy, scary, fun, happy, sad, life filled, emotional, month since I quit my "day job". I know I made the right choice but some days it's hard to shut the negative voice in my head up.

I may be crazy but I'm still trusting in that Romans 8:28 promise that "all things work together for good." And that he's carrying me and blessing me with more grace then I deserve.

Guilty pleasure

This girl may be 25, but when "The Climb" by Miley Cyrus comes on the radio I always turn it up. The lyrics hit home and I catch myself tearing up every time.



I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on




This mountain I'm climbing is tough, it can be scary and stressful and sleep depriving but its amazing and big and filled with miracles and i will never stop climbing...

(Now if only I felt this way about running lol)

Big News...

I recently took a big step out of my comfort zone.

I. Quit. Daycare.

This is kind of a big deal for me as I have been doing daycare forever. No really I grew up at this center and have taken care of hundreds of kids, that each hold a special place in my heart (yes, even the most precious ones, Jill) Daycare is comfortable, I know exactly what to do. I can change the diapers of a roomful of toddlers in minutes. I know the art of making a perfect temperature bottle. I can turn a room full of crabby kiddos into a room full of cooperative learners with a song and dance. I know daycare. I also knew that daycare would not be forever. I love children, I enjoy teaching, rocking, singing, and painting with the little ones. I love their hugs and smiles. I am blessed and very gratful that I was called to do daycare for a while, but when you hear the call to move, no matter how terrifying it is, you move.

I have been a Midwife's Aprentice for a year now, and am going to continue to do so while working towards my short and long term goals. I am taking my doula certification class in a couple months. I am doing part-time nanny work, and freelancing in the birth world. Placenta encapsulation anyone? :)


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Out like a lamb.... HA

March was a crazy month! I probably can count the number of times I slept in my own bed on one hand, I've yet to sleep in my new apartment.

• Went to Great Wolf Lodge with the roomies
• Dog sat for "The Boss"
• Turned 25
• Gabe's Surgery
• Mama went to Flordia for my uncle's surgery
• Said hello and goodye to sweet baby S
• Dog sat for K.
• Moved
• Started a new job
• Babysat for a week while a friend of mine went to London

All with several Mamas due! Call me crazy lol