Into these Hands

So I had a spontaneous whirlwind trip back home last weekend. My goal was to see as many people as possible, and i didn't do too bad. :) (Thanks for making time for me guys!)

I also received a book as a graduation present from my favorite midwife Wendy. I had never heard of this book until I borrowed a copy earlier this summer when I started attending midwife study group. This book is so amazing.

From the website:  
"It is a comprehensive anthology of the life stories of 25 remarkable women who have dedicated their lives and careers to the path of midwifery and social change"

Including some Michigan Midwifes! 

What makes my copy special is Wendy had it signed by the editor and the Michigan midwife authors.(everyone who knows me knows that one way to my heart is books that are signed lol)

What made me cry, was the signatures themselves...

When I have my days where I think that I am not good enough to do this I can look at their encouraging words.

"We want you" "Come join us" "It is time to Leap!"

Truth is...

1. It is move in weekend at my Alma Mater 
2. I am glad to be done, but miss my community
3. I should not have looked at my college scrap book because it still makes me sad.
4. looking at the college scrapbook, caused me to look at the Guatemala scrapbook which caused me to look at the Isabella scrapbook, which made me sad.
5. I miss my college
6. I miss "my" daughter
7. My job is kinda stinky, but it will get better
8. Some days my dreams feel so close and real
9. some days they feel impossible
10. I know God is always there but I am having a blind time
11. I have really awesome friends and mentors
12. I am far away from most of them
13. I got a graduation gift last week that made me go home and cry
14. I am really tired
15. things are always better in the morning
16. My Gabe is going to be one soon
17. I need to make some phone calls i have been putting off
18. loan repayment starts soon
19. I don't know where I will be come June
20. I am trying to remember that I didn't know where I would be this time last year.
21. I wish I would have tried harder in spanish class and ASL class
22. my camera died and I am very lost without it

...this is what is on my mind.

Saturday Adventure...

M&D went to work on D's new classroom today so we had a bit of a preview day.

 Monkey had a rough morning, but nothing a nap couldn't fix!

 When the rain stopped we headed to the park to watch the big kids play 

(and Nanny got the "oh my gosh, triplets" comments and stares for the first time)

 Cheesy Smiles!

Determined to get the camera!!!